Wednesday, November 05, 2008 @11/05/2008 09:36:00 PM
im sooo damn freaking mad.
this gona be my last entry to you, ow.
for the past few days,
you send me these numerous text
yes, i was touched.
i was guilty of what i've done
but have you ever thought what really make me do this
i give up on us ourself
i was the one that gave all these up
like what you said, if wana blame, i'll be the one
but
was all these really mine fault?
i feel so humilated
soo wrongly accused
ask my close ones ard me, how i was really treated
they said "you deserve a better one"
yet? who was de one tt endure all these thru.
how many lies were uncovered by me, & ur friends
the big bombs tt you always hang ard in your mouth
the promises time after time that you break
now, i know you're tinking of de promises i broke too
but it was only after i see no actions in your promises
i said all these now not hopping to start all over
i just wana vent out everything now
instead,the way things are now are much more better
for me.
'nuff said
afterall, thanks for these concern
i really do appreciate.
(:
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Since you came into my life on o3o6o7, you became de light in me
you were always there for me when i needed u, always there pushing me along
even though i seem ungrateful, i was always super grateful on the inside
just tt i dont show it, cos i really hated myself putting u through so much
i jus really wanted to just change my ways & start treating you de way i reali feel
but for 2days, i waited in the cold and rain for you
and 2days you just left me there
during this time when i needed you the most, you just chose to leave
taking the light with you and casting back to the old world
many things will be left unsaid but things tt have been said
will always be etched into my memories..
watch your head when u sleep in the bus, dont bang it on the window
bring a jacket when you watch a movie, so you wont catch cold
eat regularly & stock tibits,
so you'll have things to munch on
when you get hungry during your periods
and, dont overwork
your health is more important
In the end, all tat have said jus proves to be too much for you to bear
im sorry for being sucha lousy & useless bf
making you suffer with me more then 16months
sorry too for cocking up de most impt bday of ur life
at least nw im sure i wont have any steamegg or chocolatecake
on my birthday, or any celebrations at all
i miss u terribly baby
and i love you darling
i always had and always will
you always will be the only girl i'll love
i wish you luck in chasing ur dreams and ur future
Goodbye to you,
to the only girl i've ever loved
i'll still always love you
Forever, goodbye.
you were the one tt really knew me inside out
but upset to say, our fate 've reached the end.
and what makes me more boiled is
after all these, you pushed de blame to me
me yah? me.
"speak not about my fall back into the hell tat is my old ways
but bear in mind u were the one who threw me back down"
i turned you back to the way you were?
hell man
it's your life
you control your own life
not me
your own life is in your hands
the way you wana destroy it and handle it
are all in your hands
kindly please think twice before pointing ur fingers at others
yeah?
lets jus really put an end here now to everything.
all these got to end anyway
im sorry for these harsh words
do take good care of yourself
its time to grow up soon, dont waste life like this
dont let me worry too anyway
still, i've to say
really a great thanks for all those good times
(:
i guessed time will jus proves all things
goodbye, you'll be deeply missed.
