all these here aren't my rants
for baby,
Many things have changed
We cant deny it hasnt because its so obvious it had
I made mistakes after another
We cant deny it hasnt because its so obvious it had
I made mistakes after another
I feel tremendously awful.
I'm beginning to question.
And i question myself
Ihate the way I'm feeling now
Bttersweet, coupled with the pangs of missing love
ICan't help but noticed that i teared very easily nowadays
Infront of you especially only
The close ones
Over happiness and unhappiness
Over the slightest thing
Over absurd reasons
And these days especially the unhappy ones
I just felt like crying these days
I realized that
I was indeed quite a horrible. wretched girlfriend
And it's not like I am very proud of that
I always think i could have done well
But i always failed terribly
Could have been at least better
You know, down the drama
More the love and understanding
But it's all a tad too late
I made my baby so mad
I hurt him up so badly that day
The worst
Those words jus came out before i could think twice
Those harsh words of mine
De huge hurt impact only comes later to me
Regret, Remorse
Though fill up the whole emptiness
Yet i guess its no more of a use
Serves me right issnt it
The one whom i really dont wish to hurt most
Is you
Yet i've done it
What has really gotten into me
You told me
"Dont teared anymore"
"It doesnt help"
"Cause the hurt is done"
Your-once-assured-thoughts of me as the last
Is slowly fading i guessed
I made you lost full confidence for us
Though i knew
Mine was the most ultimate hurt
Yours affect me too
I dont know how long will the confidence be build up
Again
But im willing to try for us
This time round
I rather we talk things out
Than act ignorant
And act as nothing happen the next day
Im not sucha person
Who can take it as nothing happens
Yet i've to do all these
I know
I realli know
Im at fault
Im sorry
I really do mean it
im sorry :'(
Forgiveness takes time
Im willing to wait
But please dont take too long
Cos' i dont know if i can take it
I never fail to realised after a big fight
It's always him that gives in to me
i NEVER said sorry before he does
Yes, curse me
If he shld decide to dump me one day
I totally deserve it
I'd rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm
Than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
Sorry. And i love you <3
You always have been so uberly sweet
Fetching & picking me up from work
Cooking things for me to eat
Singing me to sleep
Encouraging me now and then
Enduring my nonsense over & over
Enduring my unbearable temper over & over
Never fail to be there whenever i felt like crying
Whenever i see him
It seemed as though the sun came out
His hug and kisses are like my antidote and cure
Someone whom i can trust utterly
Who knows the best and worst of me
And who love me in spite of all my faults
So boyfriend, thank you so very much.
我曾认真 深爱着一个人 他给我幸福
我等,我问
未来何时发生他只是给我一个吻 is 快乐
我哭 是因为你的手曾答应带我向前走难过
我哭 是因为我的手找不到你说的
以后 de 眼泪
我都曾为你流感动和悲伤都是理由只不过
在你不再爱我了以后剩坏的眼泪慢慢流快乐
我哭 是因为我付出得到你温柔的答复难过
我哭 是因为我认输你的心永远留不住好眼泪 坏眼泪
我都曾为你流感动和悲伤都是理由只希望
在我不再想你了以之后有好的眼泪慢慢流有好的笑容陪着我
Now
How i hope and wish
Ignorance is bliss.
This time round
I really hope to stay till old with you
I dont know if i can walk down the aisle with you successfully
Im sorry for the troubles i've caused
And stress you
To even till you feel like living is a hardy
I rather take your path
I dont know how even till now
We have to reach to this stage
Compared to the first few
You means more then words i can say to me
thanks for everything.
heart wrenching.keren, thanks fot being here always
i know i will need ur rely for now and then
and reliance for support from now on
thank you sis.
